Do I Really Trust God?

Where I'm at: usual spot on the couch
Weather: 68 degrees
Sights and Sounds: Dad's TV
Mood: Disappointed in Myself

I learned a hard lesson today. I blew it! Have you ever been so concerned for someone that you divulge information that is not yours to divulge to someone else because you are worried, and/or feel the need for prayer coverage?? And then it gets back to the person you were entrusted with the information?? When will I learn that this is not OK -ever (unless death or physical harm - I guess??) And now...am I trustworthy to this person? Probably not for a while - and this is not the time for me to be in that position. I feel like a rat. I keep wishing I could go back in time, to that very moment I opened my mouth and shared information that was not mine to share, and was wiser, kept it to myself, handed it over to God. But no...I still seem to think that I have a better plan. Do I really think God can't handle this? Do I really think He has to have me meddling around, Getting other people tangled in my web? How many times have I gotten in His way? Too many to count! Like the grains of sand in all the world, from beginning of time (OK - I maybe wallowing in my sorrows with that, but you get what I mean). My intentions were not to gossip. My intentions truly were for prayer coverage, but I stepped out of line. It wasn't my place to ask others to pray about specifics.

My God is a GREAT God. Trustworthy of all the secrets, and more powerful than any other force in all the universes. It could have been so much different. I could have poured out my heart to God, asking for extra protection-extra prayer coverage-Holy Spirit intervention. I did not have the "authority"/"permission" to share with anyone else. He would have come through. And I would have seen His power in a way I never have. And now...my time and energy was spent on damage control and clean up. Why? Because I spoke before thinking. I shared what was not mine to share.

Forgive me, Lord. I thank you for the forgiveness I received from the person I wronged. I pray that I will be able to restore the trust that has been cracked/broken between us. But more importantly, I pray that You will be glorified in all of this. That this person will see past my sin, and not judge You based on my bad choices - and that grace will be extended to all.

Psalm 25:1-2 To you, O LORD, I lift up my soul; in you I trust, O my God. Do not let me be put to shame, nor let my enemies triumph over me.

Psalm 62:8 Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge.

John 14:1 "Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God ; trust also in me.

Romans 5:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.